Manifesto of Nancy

The Manifesto Of Nancy
Blogging? Manifesto? The only blogging I have ever done is the playlist that I post for my radio program, “Pathways” on WEVL. That’s just a playlist…I don’t know how to blog! And who would even be interested?
Well, someone might, we as a society do seem to have a fascination with other people’s lives. Hence the concept of reality television shows, which I really do not care for at all. Well, maybe one, I have occasionally caught and snickered at at an episode or two of “Wife Swap”. But that wore off pretty quickly. The fascination we have with the lives of others has been evident long before reality shows came along. We have always been fascinated with celebirties and their lives, what with fan magazines, papers like the National Enquirer and gossip columnists in all forms of media.
A manifesto is supposed to state my beliefs so I’ll state a few. Some days I don’t even know what they are. But I do have core values that I have pretty much held on to for most of my life now. I don’t always live by them but I don’t know many people who do on a daily, hour to hour basis. If there is such a person, I don’t know if I even want to know them. Too much perfection gets on my nerves.
My own life has been pretty much a train wreck for several months now. Oh hell, honestly, probably for years. Things have just escalated over the past three or four months. I have been through trials before and it does not get any easier the second, third, fourth or what ever time. But it is true it can make you a stronger, better and wiser person. But that’s if you pay attention and do not forget the lessons you have learned before. I thought I did that but I obviously had some more learning to do.

I am a Christian and I do believe that God is in control of my life. I also believe I have the free will to make my own decisions. If I make the wrong ones it’s not God’s fault, it is mine.
Getting through trials is a process. After you go through one when you hit the second one you have the comfort of knowing you can weather through it. There is another side that you will reach. I wish I could transfer this “knowing” to my daughters. I know there will be pain in their lives but I guess they will have to find their own paths to the other side.
On a more positive and hopefully, less boring note, I have many, many blessings in my life. The number one being my two wonderful daughters, Rachel and Ariel. So if teacher wants to talk about her daughter in class I completely understand. Mine are a little bit older though. Rachel is twenty-three and graduated with a Major in German in December right here at University of Memphis. She is now in Germany, in fact, she left on December thirteenth. She couldn’t wait. She is getting a certification in English as a second language and hopes to teach. Ariel at nineteen is a freshman here and still searching for her major. They are both fantastic and I love being around them.
So why am I here at this university? Why now? I have been involved in the real estate industry in one form or fashion for many years. So with the current economic conditions I decided it was time for my second life. I applied for and received a grant so I decided that was a sign from God I was headed in the right direction. Not everyone was excited with my decision, but the people who mattered and cared about me supported me.
My original thoughts were to possibly go for a degree in law. I have since started looking at other possibilities. I actually think I would make a pretty good attorney but I will have to wait and see if I want to go to school that long. Right now I am enjoying the new experience of going to school and living my life, at least in some small way, for myself. As a mother and wife you forget that you are part of the equation. Taking care to take care of yourself makes you better for everyone.
I have also have my family who are very supportive. I have girlfriends who I have known for a very loooong time. They are as close as sisters to me. There have been long periods of time when we did not see or talk to each other for whatever reasons. Moving away or getting married, but when we see each other again it is like we saw each other yesterday. It is great to have friends like that. Everyone needs a couple.
In conclusion, I hope my manifesto is not too rambling or boring. I decided to just think out loud on paper, or blog.